I am what I am.

The time has come yet again for me to make a choice, a stand, a decision.

No matter what, I choose to be true to myself.

Getting Through It

That was a tough one.

Come on in and stop for a second to shake your head, dust yourself off, and look back at how far you’ve come.

Sure, it’s been a long year. Some crushing lows slapped you and smacked you around. There were times your heart dipped and you squinted back tears while your stomach squeezed so tightly you couldn’t sleep. There were moments you walked around in a glossy-eyeball daze — when loved ones hurt, friends didn’t stay, or someone dear to your heart slowly drifted away.

Sleepless nights, stressful nights, with teething babies, slurring customers, bad bosses, bickering boyfriends, or blank computer screens. You were feeling and you were dealing and you were reeling and you were healing.

But as you walked your hard path down your long and bumpy road some little drops of confidence dripped like coffee into your head and into your heart. As you stumbled and got back up a quiet inner strength slowly seeped into your bones. And as you climbed over obstacles set in your way some relaxed satisfaction and growing self-awareness glimmered like bright lights at the bottom of your stomach.

Yes, this year changed you and grew you in so many ways you don’t even feel or notice yet. As you struggled you empathized, as you slipped you understood, as you worked you earned…

… as you looked you learned

… … as you dared you grew

… … … and as you jumped you flew.

Your dreams are still focusing and your passion is growing. Your energy is still bubbling and your story keeps going.

You’ve been through so much and gained a year’s supply of experience along the way. You’re stronger than you were last year and stronger than you realize. Sure, there were times you bent, but you definitely didn’t break. There were times you caved, but you definitely didn’t flake.

Listen up: you got bigger, you got better, and you got the scars to prove it.

So stop for a second today to smile and look back at everything you’ve done this year… everything you’ve seen… everywhere you’ve been…

You’ve taken more illegal naps and had more blurry-eyed late nights.

You’ve danced to more wedding songs and smiled at more beautiful sights.

You’ve seen more scorching sunsets and heard more head-bopping songs.

You’ve tripped a few times, but baby, you kept rolling right along.

Yes, you’ve hugged more old friends and kissed some brand new pretty faces.

You’ve cheered more on the sidelines and visited some brand new pretty places.

You tasted more meals, you got more deals, and you’ve sniffed more flower blossoms.

And you made it all the way through this year because you’re so completely

AWESOME!

Taken from the website- http://1000awesomethings.com/

An Unexpected Gift...

A long, long time ago... I can still remember.

8 number of years past
The scene was of the canteen on a cool afternoon
I was at the drinks store in the corner
Casually mentioned that the toy was really cute

Went off to play without a care,
or a second thought
As sunset called for time to go home
Came running back to retrieve my forsaken bag

And on top of it was gently placed,
this little toy of Sylvester and Tweety.

I never got to know who the giver was
But I am reminded again this Christmas,
that it's not about the receiving, but of the giving.

To the person who gave me the unexpected gift,
I thank you

For you gave me much more than you probably know.

Midnight Emo Ramblings...

你是我的唯一


很想給妳寫封信 告訴妳這裡的天氣

昨夜的那一場電影 還有我的心情

很想給妳寫封信 卻只是想想而已

我已經不能肯定 妳是不是還會關心


愛與不愛都需要勇氣 於是我們都選擇了逃避


愛與不愛都需要勇氣 於是我們都選擇了逃避


或許妳不相信 我很滿意這樣的結局

或許妳不相信 我沒有一絲的埋怨和悔意


雖然妳是我的最初

雖然妳是我的最終

雖然妳是我的唯一


"To love or not to love, it both takes courage. That's why we chose to run away."
This song was mentioned in the sermon today and the song got stuck in my head.

Why do people always like to run away and not face the issue?
Don't they know that once you start running, you will always be running away from the problem and never getting over it?
What if one side decides to stay and face it but the other runs?

That must be the suckiest feeling in the world, to be left stranded trying to solve a problem that requires both to be involved. It's like trying to clap with one hand.

Thinking through, I think I know how God feels about us pesky humans now... haha.

What do you see?

An optimist is a person who sees only the lights in the picture, whereas a pessimist sees only the shadows. An idealist, however, is one who sees the light and the shadows, but in addition sees something else: the possibility of changing the picture, of making the lights prevail over the shadows.

21 Guns

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I


The first two lines just blew me away...
Sometimes it is just best to let go and give up coz the fight is just not worth it...

Fitting In......

Some changes happening around me now...

Sometimes I really wonder, am I trying to fit into shoes that are waay too big for me?

Work.

Work has been crazily busy, making me feel like a dehydrated piece of fruit, utterly squeezed out of all juices - brain and body.

Just hope that at the end of it all, things will turn out much sweeter than it seems.

HDB: Houses Dat are Beautiful...

Hey peeps,

know my blog has been on the freezer for the past months. It was partly due to Blogger refusing to let me upload my pictures and my busy work life...But not to worry because I'm back!

Shall start over again by this post that has been swimming in my head since a long time ago.

I've heard people telling me that the Singapore landscape is blah... that everything looks the same and uniformed, especially the mass housing blocks we all live in called the HDB.

But I beg to differ.

A walk around the island and a closer look will let you realise that not all housing blocks are the same. At least for me, each of the HDB blocks below has its own unique character and architectural flavour. See if you can guess where they are! :)




I love rainbows!



This one is painted in nationalistic colours.




Reminds me of some modern surreal painting.

The shit will pass and Life will Glow...

You know how sometimes you have one of those days when everything just seems to go wrong? Well, I just had one of those weeks when Murphy decided to use me as a guinea pig to test out his laws!

At the end of it, this song I just sang today came to mind.
That despite everything, at least I still have Someone who is in control, who knows my thoughts, who sees my every step and loves me all the way.

He has been good to me and that is enough. Hallelujah! :)

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand


When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand


Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done


Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand



(He decided to send me another one to cheer me up since I didn't manage to catch the last one on camera :))


As You open my eyes to the work of Your Hand...

In my life, Your will be done.